I’m Ashamed Of Myself!
I once worked in a place and everything was going on fine until one new guy was employed by my boss to work with us. Have you ever set your eyes on someone and your heart begins to race faster than that of a hungry lion chasing its prey? That was how I felt the day this young man resumed duty. Words can’t describe his cuteness. He was tall, dark and handsome. From his well-built chest to his baritone, he seemed perfect. This was the genesis of my plight.
I found myself thinking about him day and night. Even during working hours, my pen missed its duty severally only to write his name on the office sheets. Although my boss didn’t notice I was lost in emotions for this new guy. Unlike before, I spent hours dressing before the mirror just to look great in order to get him notice me but he seemed not interested in me. How do you feel when you love someone and that person doesn’t care? I guess you understand how I felt. I remember helping him out with his chores and all he said was “thank you”; not even a request for a hangout. I felt like soiling his suit with my tears but I just had to put myself together. I tried all I could to get his attention but it was to no avail.
One Tuesday, during our free period, I met him reading a book in his domain so I asked if we could have lunch together but he bluntly said “no”.
Those words pierced my heart like a needle going through linen. I just couldn’t help it anymore. I can’t really explain in words the extent to which I was heartbroken.
Well, I got fed up and decided to try plan B. I decided to set him up; so sorry for saying this publicly. You know when you love someone, you can do stupid things. I set him up. I just wanted to feel his arms around me and his masculine hugs. So I lured him to my room and took off my dress. Any sane man will fall for the nakedness of a woman but he disappointed me. I was ashamed when he yelled at me with a frown on his face.
“Woman! I can’t have sex with you. I don’t love you and you have a husband. I can’t do this against my master. I am a man of Integrity “
And he walked out on me. I felt like a dummy, maybe I was. Many of you know me. I am Potiphar’s wife and Joseph was the man I was after.
Well, I shared my story to teach you all something you don’t know.
I hear you say ‘all men are the same’. That’s a big lie! There are still good men out there who value their integrity more than the warmth of a strange sexy woman under the bedsheets of romance. There are still men who would see free sex and say no. There are still men who are faithful to their soul mates. Stop spreading the false rumour. The world is corrupt, fine! But good guys still exist.
TO THE YOUNG LADIES
Know this today, it is not your job to chase a man. When God said he that findeth a wife findeth a good thing, He was not blabbing. I understand you may develop feelings but don’t take up a man’s duty. Give yourself some self-respect. I bet Joseph never respected Potiphar’s wife after her shameful acts. Stop forcing him to notice you.
Every man knows the woman who his heart beats for and will always chase her. So if he ain’t chasing you, then, he is not yours. Stop reducing your standards as a woman.
Stop chasing him, it is his duty, not yours. If you like, wash his clothes and cook all day for him, if he is not interested in you, all those things will not move him.
Be Worth Being Chased!
Lastly, self-control is possible. I hear some people say they were tempted and the sexual urges kill them but if only you can make Joseph your role model, you will know how to use your legs when necessary and say ‘no’ as at when due.
Let’s have a re-think.